While consistency has not always been my strong suit, it is the stable energy that has been sucked like a vacuum into my everyday existence. The wiggles and shifting of my little Eloise, the ways my life has taken a certain form each day, every morning, near like clock work. Even if catapulted into these experiences with daily struggles of… Read more →
Me. Every word. And as free and fully alive as I feel, it’s really heavy sometimes, because feeling connected is hard when I Know I have outgrown the mental-emotional limitations and perspectives of those who I was once so intertwined with… I feel isolated often by how I have outgrown all that once was key in the definition of my… Read more →
Recently I got so dehydrated from puking that I had to go to an emergency room for iv fluids. However, the iv they put in was really badly placed and the first medicine they gave me made me worse for the next 24+ hours til my barely conscious self was so forthright with the Dr. prescribing to me that whatever… Read more →
When I get engrossed in a good book or a good film/show, the thoughts plug in as if into a different reality. These timelines and people become my world for a brief period as if I am entranced in the very bodily experiences of those in front of me presented before my mind. The development of the character entangles directly… Read more →
Today after my naturopathic doctor’s appt was rescheduled, I followed the pull to a gift shop I didn’t even know exsisted til I was pulling into the parking lot, drawn in like a moth to flame. I was immediately pleased and in a state of open appreciation walking into the shop and looking around. I was immeadiately drawn to the… Read more →
Since finding out I am pregnant the shifts that were already taking place within me have come with more clarity of feeling and refining of my thoughts about the experiences I am welcoming into my life with how I treat my body- what I put into it with supplements, foods, how much water I drink every single day, how much… Read more →
I have collected a wonderful array of memes from my years on fb, I will be uploading them for your enjoyment weekly. Also keep an eye out for paintings and prints, writings from my blog and interesting articles I have found through my days. I hope they bring you the clarity of thought and help you focus your mental directions… Read more →
I am in process of becoming a whole new person, I feel it in my edges as I feel the rush of the unknown breeze past me at a brisk skip. My skin tingles as the fibers of my hair stand on end, waiting for that moment when all newness is palpable, made visible in manifestation. I have begun using… Read more →
The feelings and words that swirl inside of me, deafen me with the cacophony of contradicting, mutually valid experiential perspectives. My entire existence begins and extends from my perceptions established by my mind, my decisions, my choices to give into my egotistical self belittling tapes or to recognize them, press pause before I can even begin to start reciting along… Read more →
That moment when I realized both my Dad and my Mom chose my Dad’s gf over me. I’m done. F*ck a family that has never allowed me feel at home or safe or seen or loved. F*ck family who has used my openness and empathy to mistreat, torture and write me off my whole life. I’m done. NO MORE. My… Read more →