While consistency has not always been my strong suit, it is the stable energy that has been sucked like a vacuum into my everyday existence. The wiggles and shifting of my little Eloise, the ways my life has taken a certain form each day, every morning, near like clock work. Even if catapulted into these experiences with daily struggles of… Read more →
Me. Every word. And as free and fully alive as I feel, it’s really heavy sometimes, because feeling connected is hard when I Know I have outgrown the mental-emotional limitations and perspectives of those who I was once so intertwined with… I feel isolated often by how I have outgrown all that once was key in the definition of my… Read more →
What type of parent doesn’t even bother to try to see their pregnant child for Xmas, yet only pesters that child for the money he essentially forced her to spend to fund an extra long skiing, Xmas and NYE (and beyond) trip with the other child and her significant other for the 2nd? 3rd year in a row? (Yes, I… Read more →
Every morning recently I wake up feeling overwhelmed by stress, even though, I do manage to feel better by about mid-day/evening. The constant headache from temple pressure from stress is a special type of h*ll since I can’t really take anything for pain without wondering if I’m hurting my little one… This has been going on my entire life, mornings… Read more →
Remember, sometimes it is way more of a struggle for the person you are offering/giving help to to ask for and even open to receive help (even if they REALLY REALLY need it) than it is for you to notice, offer and give the help that you are giving to that person (even if it is not that easy for… Read more →
Since finding out I am pregnant the shifts that were already taking place within me have come with more clarity of feeling and refining of my thoughts about the experiences I am welcoming into my life with how I treat my body- what I put into it with supplements, foods, how much water I drink every single day, how much… Read more →
There has been a profound and progressive shift in my focus over the last few years that has heightened in my life the aspects that I am feeling drawn to delve into, they build and link- creating this other me to emerge. As I have been studying and contemplating the Gene Keys, my awareness of my catalytic nature has popped… Read more →
That moment when I realized both my Dad and my Mom chose my Dad’s gf over me. I’m done. F*ck a family that has never allowed me feel at home or safe or seen or loved. F*ck family who has used my openness and empathy to mistreat, torture and write me off my whole life. I’m done. NO MORE. My… Read more →